Change I Need
Sometimes things don’t turn out to be as same as our expectations and we face with difficulties in handling them, and lately I’ve ran into such a situation that I never experienced in my life.
Before finishing my service, I expected to confront with a short period of abeyance or inundation because I had heard about that from some friends who had finished the military service sooner than me, and actually I faced with the later situation and overwhelmed by lots of tasks that require much time to be done.
The reason that I’m writing this stuff on my blog is to clarify some points about the recent suspension on my blog and my online activities. I’ve been blogging for almost 3.5 years and never had less than 20 blog posts per months but last month I published 17 posts to not attain my own record. Of course, this isn’t important at all because I’m not blogging for records but when you do something on a regular basis and on a constant rhythm, something like this situation gets bolder in your mind.
Blogging is something banal for its own but no one can gainsay that a person can feel good about such a disruption in his regular works. Moreover, I’m in a very sensitive part of my life that can influence my overall life forever, and it requires me to put more effort into that.
Since the beginning of my military service and even long time before then, I had some long term plans for my future life that I could achieve after finishing the service. As long as I got closer to the end, I actively worked on those stuff and tried to ameliorate my life. In essence, I can state that the next 9-10 months are the most sensitive part of my life and I’m transitioning from a life that I was forced to life to a life that I’d love to live.
When service ended, I suddenly faced with lots of things that jumped out of the box that was locked by this service key, and I had to catch them on fly. First thing was, doing a lot of paperwork to get my military certificate in order to get the legal identity to request my university diploma and my passport as two axiomatic documents that a human should have (and thank to local laws, I didn’t have them until 24!). Paperwork is such a pain for everyone in any region but it can be duplicated in this country, so I spent a lot of time moving from one organization to another and even traveled to Semnan to get my university documents.
Besides, I took an important exam a few days after finishing my service, and also have been studying hard for another exam that I’ll take in the end of November abroad. Both exams are such vital exams for my future that I have to focus on, and fortunately I got excellent results from the first one.
It doesn’t end at this point because I’m also so busy with an application process that eats my time and hopefully I’ll write about it within 7-8 months. It requires a lot of research, looking for various options, communicating with different people, and getting the best out of that.
My fourth major business is, writing the book that I recently gave an status of its progress, and it also compels me to keep my heads up on the content and try to choose the relevant content for audience with good sample codes.
While these are my main tasks and each one mandates a huge amount of time, I’m also dealing with some side-works that can stop me from anything. These days I’m under a bad pressure that doesn’t allow me to sleep well and has reduced my appetite. Honestly, I’m a little upset (like the past months) and you know that it doesn’t allow me to think freely.
All in all, this story ends in early December because all abovementioned tasks will end until then, and I’d like to take a short while off to recover from the past few years that had a bad influence on my mind and my body. I’m planning to start training again and gather my old soccer teammates to play together. I also want to dedicate a short while to some stuff that I’ve promised to do on this blog and the community and I haven’t been able to finish or even start them yet! Frankly, I’m tired of the current style of my blogging because it looks like a repetitive task for me, and I’d like to take new styles not only in blogging but also in other aspects of my personal and professional life.
I can summarize everything in a simple sentence that you would know its meaning better than ever: Change I need! Really!
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4 Comments : 11.12.08
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@Steve
Yes, that is what I think, too. It's difficult to difficult the stress especially when I'm dealing with close deadlines and don't have much chance to do things twice, however, I personally think much about everything and get into details which is not something good at all.
Btw, thank you, man :-) I'm looking forward to meeting you, too :-)
i keep dropping by .. i dont read all of them but i do wait for something to pop up kinds ... just wanted to give you some strength and support .. i'm sure that things will work out fine... just look inside you and you will find all the energy you need to keep you going .. probably u can take a trip down to India too once you're set!!
You know that it’s been over ten days since the last update on this blog and such a suspension has not happened to it to now, but as I had described before, it was all predictable for me. Since the beginning of my military service I’ve had a gradual aggravating
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Steve Smith
11.12.2008 @ 3:36 PM
You're on the right path. Don't let stress get to you. Focus on the things that need done TODAY, which if you're very busy you'll always have a few. Don't worry about the rest until TODAY's priorities are done. Then any time that remains, put toward rest and toward making sure everything you need is in place to do what needs done TOMORROW.
Replace TODAY and TOMORROW with "this week" or "this month" and "next week" or "next month" once you get enough slack that you can think that far ahead.
Good luck! I'm looking forward to meeting you soon once you relocate.